There is one thing that has slowly been seeping into the corners of my thoughts....none of us get It, not really. The lives we're living? They're pretty much a sham. I don't think we realize just what It is that we're missing in the day-to-day "stuff" we call life. THIS is not life. HE is life.
I don't get It. Sure, I believe Jesus is the Way, the Truth & the Life, the only way to the Father, but I still don't get It. I believe in the 10 commandments, but I still don't get It. I believe that we must love God best & first & our neighbors as ourselves, but I still don't get It.
It saddens me to see everyone else missing It too. A lot.
But.
There is Someone who is crazy about me & if I let Him, He will show It to me.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Answers
I love it when God sends answers to questions in ways you weren't expecting!
I have never read through the entire Bible. Sad, but true. I'd heard about the 90-day Bible so I thought I'd give it a shot beginning January 1st. (It's not a resolution, just a great time to start something new!) So far, I've gotten all the way to Joshua & let me tell you, Leviticus was hard! Deuteronomy too! And after reading those books, it just seemed to me like it would have been virtually impossible to live up to the commands & sacrifices & all that God gave His people. So many thoughts about these things were swirling around in my head; what about this? What about that? It's definitely had me thinking. We watched a video (1 within a series) done by Andy Stanley in sunday school this morning; he was talking about the twist the word sin has taken to the word mistake. A lot of the things I had been thinking about/questioning from the old testament were talked about in the video and especially how it connects to Jesus in the new testament. God just made it so clear to me today & I'm grateful that He showed me through an avenue I wouldn't have thought would lead to where it did.
I am not always able to accurately articulate what I'm thinking so I'm hoping all of this isn't confusing. But I wanted to share God's faithfulness with you, His faithfulness even in the little things because it was so cool to be sitting in class thinking, "Thank you Lord for caring about what I'm thinking & learning that you would bring this to me now."
It's just amazing to me.
I have never read through the entire Bible. Sad, but true. I'd heard about the 90-day Bible so I thought I'd give it a shot beginning January 1st. (It's not a resolution, just a great time to start something new!) So far, I've gotten all the way to Joshua & let me tell you, Leviticus was hard! Deuteronomy too! And after reading those books, it just seemed to me like it would have been virtually impossible to live up to the commands & sacrifices & all that God gave His people. So many thoughts about these things were swirling around in my head; what about this? What about that? It's definitely had me thinking. We watched a video (1 within a series) done by Andy Stanley in sunday school this morning; he was talking about the twist the word sin has taken to the word mistake. A lot of the things I had been thinking about/questioning from the old testament were talked about in the video and especially how it connects to Jesus in the new testament. God just made it so clear to me today & I'm grateful that He showed me through an avenue I wouldn't have thought would lead to where it did.
I am not always able to accurately articulate what I'm thinking so I'm hoping all of this isn't confusing. But I wanted to share God's faithfulness with you, His faithfulness even in the little things because it was so cool to be sitting in class thinking, "Thank you Lord for caring about what I'm thinking & learning that you would bring this to me now."
It's just amazing to me.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
My Thoughts on baby Jif...
Well, for Christmas we told everyone who baby Jif is going to be, or at least who we were told Jif is going to be! =)
Jif is a girl!
Hmm, I'm not sure what to think about this. I guess this post is more for me to process through the thoughts I'm struggling with today than anything.
Really, is Jif REALLY a girl? I don't believe it! I want to but seriously, I'm having a hard time convincing myself; I want to buy cute pink things, paint flowers on the walls, etc. but girls are so rare in Farmer's family & I really never thought I would have a girl that I'm afraid to do much! It's more the worrying that the prediction is wrong & I'LL look like an idiot for believing it & telling everyone who've been waiting for a girl, than the fact it wouldn't actually be a girl. I'm really struggling with this. And to be clear...if Jif actually turns out to be a boy, I will not be sad. Disappointed that pink & girly wouldn't be in the picture but not sad that it's a boy, it's what I would have expected anyway!
I almost wish we wouldn't have found out! Then I wouldn't be having such a conniption because as anyone who knows me or my family genetics knows, worrying is deeply ingrained in the brain!
And I don't think Farmer & I will ever get a name picked out, this one seems to be so much harder than with Peter Pan or Skippy. And we're still going to have a boy's name ready, just in case!
And I can't even explain how scary I think it is to even raise a girl! The emotions-I've just started getting a little bit of control over my own, how am I going to handle another female's craziness! The physical differences-this will be easier to adjust to but still scary! On and on my brain would go if I let it...
Do you think I'm crazy by now? I'm starting to think I am! Well, anyway, thanks for listening, I needed to get that out of my head & into some concrete form. I'd also be grateful for your prayers! As silly as this may seem to some of you, it's actually quite a big deal to me and I don't want it to be! I want to enjoy these last 3 months!
Jif is a girl!
Hmm, I'm not sure what to think about this. I guess this post is more for me to process through the thoughts I'm struggling with today than anything.
Really, is Jif REALLY a girl? I don't believe it! I want to but seriously, I'm having a hard time convincing myself; I want to buy cute pink things, paint flowers on the walls, etc. but girls are so rare in Farmer's family & I really never thought I would have a girl that I'm afraid to do much! It's more the worrying that the prediction is wrong & I'LL look like an idiot for believing it & telling everyone who've been waiting for a girl, than the fact it wouldn't actually be a girl. I'm really struggling with this. And to be clear...if Jif actually turns out to be a boy, I will not be sad. Disappointed that pink & girly wouldn't be in the picture but not sad that it's a boy, it's what I would have expected anyway!
I almost wish we wouldn't have found out! Then I wouldn't be having such a conniption because as anyone who knows me or my family genetics knows, worrying is deeply ingrained in the brain!
And I don't think Farmer & I will ever get a name picked out, this one seems to be so much harder than with Peter Pan or Skippy. And we're still going to have a boy's name ready, just in case!
And I can't even explain how scary I think it is to even raise a girl! The emotions-I've just started getting a little bit of control over my own, how am I going to handle another female's craziness! The physical differences-this will be easier to adjust to but still scary! On and on my brain would go if I let it...
Do you think I'm crazy by now? I'm starting to think I am! Well, anyway, thanks for listening, I needed to get that out of my head & into some concrete form. I'd also be grateful for your prayers! As silly as this may seem to some of you, it's actually quite a big deal to me and I don't want it to be! I want to enjoy these last 3 months!
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